Last night I awoke in the middle of the night and semi-consciously began to worry; nothing specific had yet entered my mind, but I experienced a recurrent and familiar gnawing feeling of bearing a burden, of not being in control, of being imperfect. Then suddenly I was overcome by a peace. I became aware that if I let go of myself, and imagine myself only as God’s vessel, being used by Him only for His purpose, then I have no cares, no burdens, nothing to worry about. My life, and every moment—everything!— is in His hands.
I realized that any anxiety that I have comes from my own desires to satisfy myself and to be in control. If my only desire is to satisfy God, and I let go of any desire to please myself, then I have the peace that Jesus promises me (John 14:27). Anything I experience, including difficulties, challenges, suffering, pain, or hardships, I should receive with thanksgiving, because it will be God’s desire for me and intended for my growth and development in Him (1 Timothy 4:4). I have nothing to fear because He is with me (Psalm 23:4). And in that moment of letting go of myself, I felt complete peace and I was soon back asleep. But more importantly, the memory of this Spirit-given vision was with me when I awakened this morning.
Read and pray on these scriptures. Then let go and let God.
In His hands,
Doug